I’ve stopped writing for the past few weeks, I have no idea what happened. I have stopped writing even when thoughts are racing through my head. Not only did I stop doing the one thing that keeps me sane, but I also stopped talking to people.
I’ve shut down, my routine’s a mess, I get bitchy all the time, and I get overwhelmed with the clutter. Our house is messier than ever, and Dreu is getting on my nerves. I have no idea what’s happening to me. I’ve been trying to figure it out but I just can’t.
But if there’s one thing I know, I know I missed writing. So I picked up my pen and was planning to write down my thoughts. I have no idea where to start. How would I know if I didn’t even know what’s going on in my life?
So here I am writing a life update. Despite the mess my mind is going through, I’d like to share a few updates about our life.
1. I had a tooth extraction
Not really a pleasant topic to write about, but it all started here. My tooth was aching for 2 weeks but I never really thought I need to have it removed. I think the last time I had a tooth extracted was 10 years ago.
When the pain was intolerable, I decided to make an appointment. So when I was there at the dentist, the X-Ray shows that it’s no longer salvageable by a dental filling. So she suggested a root canal. I know how hard and expensive that would be, so I decided to have it extracted, instead. The pain is too much, and I just need to get rid of that tooth.
So we had it extracted. It was difficult because it’s a big tooth and the dentist needs to throw in some suture in my gums so food won’t get in the area while it’s healing. I had a suture in my gum for seven days. That extraction took a lot of my strength that I fell asleep the moment I got home. It was a whole week of taking antibiotics and painkillers. This is where it started, where my routine started to fall apart. I am having a hard time picking up on a new routine without being stressed, but hopefully, I’ll get back on it soon.
2. I have a new client for landing page designs
I never really thought that I’d pursue my skill as a landing page designer, but it was Tee’s part-time client, and she was looking for one. So I created a few works for her, and she praises me a lot. I was never confident in my designs, but she loved it so much that she appreciates me all the time. She says that I’m amazing and awesome.
It’s really great to work with clients who really appreciates what you do.
Aside from gaining a fantastic client, it was also the first time I had increased my rates.
I am an experienced designer, but because I lack confidence, I never raised my price. Tee told me that I am charging at a very low price, and if I want to attract better clients, I need to be charging more. And honestly, it was the best decision ever. If you’re a freelancer and charging less, you should reconsider your rates every now and then. If you’re not a freelancer and wants to learn graphic design, check this post.
Now, I get paid 5 times higher than when I first started, and I have an astounding client I work with.
3. Dreu is on a picky eating stage
He used to love eggs, chicken and veggies so much, but now he’s barely eating. He’s been increasing his milk intake though which I think is a good thing. He only eats a lot when we have fish for dinner.
I really wish this stage will end soon. I don’t think he’s malnourished though or if this is affecting his health at all. But as a mom, of course, I really want him to eat a balanced meal.
Fortunately, he now takes his vitamin C gummies. We had him take Scotts. He also eats lots of bananas, apples and pears, so I think he’s good, right? Yeah, he is. I am just worried maybe.
4. Pressure from the revamp
Since the blog revamp, I feel like I’m pressuring myself too much. I don’t have a direction. I plan a lot of content, which I know will be very helpful, but sometimes I feel like no one’s going to need it. I feel like it’s useless. I feel like I’m wasting my time. That’s my problem. Lately, I get discouraged right away.
And because I don’t have direction, I spend a lot of time planning my social media content but really achieving anything at all.
I ended up hating my social media posts and had them stored in the archive.
As if that’s not enough, I can’t shut my mind off about designs, business and freelancing. Just too much.
As of today, I have decided to take a break from social media. I will literally uninstall Facebook and Instagram from my phone, like a Social Media Detox.
I am crossing my fingers that taking a pause will help me gain clarity. I will give an update about it soon. While I’m at it, I’m praying that my thoughts will be more organised, my anxiety will ease down, and my mind will rest from all these overwhelming thoughts.
5. I’ll be wearing contact lenses, again
Hopefully, my eyes won’t be as dry as they were before. Because the reason I stopped wearing contacts, was because my eyes get were so dry, even when I’m drowning it with a solution.
And because it was so dry. It was irritated. That’s why I switched to glasses. Apparently, I broke two eyeglasses in the past six months.
Well, again, the fact that I am disorganised, plus a toddler who keeps getting my glasses from my eyes just decreases its lifespan. I really admire people who can use the same eyeglasses for five years or more.
Anyway, I ordered them from Executive Optical’s (EO) Lazada store. They should arrive this week, so I’ll be writing an update about that.
Oh gosh. Writing feels so good, but for now, this is as much as my hand can handle. It was so good writing my thoughts down on paper before I move them over to the blog. I really miss writing about life without any pressure at all.
It just flows naturally.
And if there’s one thing I learned this week, it’s that you should never let work or anything else run your life. Just enjoy it and spend time with your family. You may realise that a lot of incredible moments have passed because you were too occupied, spilling your strength and energy to shiny objects. That’s the thing about shiny objects, they just sparkle and attract you, but they’re not really diamonds. But your family, your family’s a diamond — a very expensive jewel you should treasure.
So have a great week, and I wish you lots of love.
FAVORITE PURCHASES THIS WEEK:
- Lucas Papaw – I had to buy one because our lips our crackin’. We were on AC 24/7 because of the humidity outside so it’s too dry inside our unit. Very effective product.
- Pilot Gtec Pens – because I badly need an extra pen. This is my favorite since college.
- Drip Coffees from Beanstock – I have never experienced good coffee as convenient as drip coffees.
- Mr. Muscle Mold & Mildew – My go-to product for our bathroom.
- Logitech Pebble Mice (not this week but I have to throw it in here because this mice is amazing)